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Unhappy Lately (The Update)

Posted by Othurme on May 6th, 2008

This, this, this, and this are mirrors I can’t stand to look into. I wanted to write about my similar thoughts and experiences, but I’m unable to talk about myself in this manner without getting severely depressed. This post requires no comments. I’m not looking for sympathy. Just merely expressing my thoughts for today. I am so greatly impressed that people can write so eloquently about and in spite of feelings so similar to mine while those same feelings keep me from managing to force a smile in public even when I’m happy.

11 Responses

  1. jester Says:

    Sometimes the exact thing we need is self-examination to kick start a new cycle.

    Ask yourself, “What would make me happ(ier)y right now?”

    If it’s a change in careers, or location, or simply a trip to Coldstone Creamery, you gotta do what it takes to get what you really want.

    It sucks being stuck. I know.

    You don’t want to disappoint someone else, but by trying so hard to please them you lose yourself.

    What do you need to do to get unstuck? (I don’t expect you to answer that here, just hope you can figure out the answer.)

    UMB and I aren’t going to let you disappear off radar. :D

  2. jane Says:

    hi Jerry

  3. othurme Says:

    Jane - hi back at a. Where ya been?

  4. Hilly Says:

    Hopefully we’ll get to talk when I am there. I can completely relate to being where you are.

    Sometimes I am just unable to admit everything going on inside of me too.

  5. jane Says:

    I’ve been here!……………hey, do you think Jason is going home?

  6. Absurdist Says:

    Hugs to you.

  7. Othurme Says:

    Hilly - I’m looking forward to it.

    Jane - I haven’t watched yet. I’m without TV until I fix a few things around the house, but from what I’ve read about tonight’s show it seem eminent.

    Abs - thanks for the hug.

  8. Gwen Says:

    Focus on the things that make you happy until you can get through this rough patch. And I know that you know at least five things that make you happy.

    And remember that this, too, shall pass. Life is an unending series of pendulum swings. It always goes back the other way. I sure wish I could give you this {{hug}} in person today.

  9. Penelope Says:

    Hello :o)
    I’m here via Twitter and wanted to say Hello! Oh, I did that already…ok.
    I’ll be snooping around your archives, glugging wine….you know…if you’re wondering ;o)

  10. othurme Says:

    Gwen - I made need you to send me that list again.

    Penelope - It’s not usually so sad around here. I look forward fiddling around in your… er… um… archives as well.

  11. Winter Says:

    Jerry… You gots a pressie coming if I can manage to meet up with Hilly before she leaves. Consider it a HUG when you’re eating it. ;)

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